Strong Obedience

I’m struggling today with obedience.  During my morning coffee with Jesus, He gave me several A-has!! that I knew I should share. I did typical morning things like exercising, showering, getting dressed, unloading the dishwasher, eating breakfast and catching up on the news.  I bemoaned the rain to my husband, I sorted and began doing laundry, I checked Facebook, Instagram and my email several times, and I allowed myself to get sucked into a game I’ve recently downloaded onto my phone.  I kept hearing God nudge me and I said (too many times) “just one more game.”  It’s a bit ironic that following through with obedience to blog is my struggle today since I the A-has the Holy Spirit gave me were from the story of Abraham being willing to sacrifice Isaac. 

The story is found in Genesis 22:1-19, and in the story Abraham shows amazing willingness and follow-through in the concept of obedience.  I most definitely didn’t follow the example he left this morning.  And God is gracious and forgiving, for which I am exceedingly grateful.  The lesson of strong obedience is difficult for me.  Some might describe Abraham’s obedience as blind because he went where God told him to go when he didn’t know where he was going (Genesis 12:1) and he was willing to sacrifice his only son without knowing how God would fulfill the promise He had given Abraham to make him the father of many nations (Genesis 17:4).  I think Abraham saw what I evidently struggle to see.  Abraham had an ability to see that God is, that God is sovereign, that God is worthy of all worship, that God can be trusted whatever the circumstance. God revealed three fresh insights to me as I read His story of Abraham. 

The first thing God’s Holy Spirit pointed out to me is found in Genesis 22:2.  God gave Abraham the instruction to offer Isaac as a burnt offering.  God revealed He knew Abraham well because He knows Abraham sees Isaac as his only son, even though Abraham is the father of Ishmael as well.  God also identifies that he recognizes how deeply Abraham loves Isaac.  And yet, God tells Abraham to give his son over as a sacrifice “on one of the mountains I will tell you about.”  God asks Abraham to follow through on an excruciating step of obedience and doesn’t even give the full details of the obedience up front. If I had been Abraham I would have had a ton of questions!  They would’ve flowed from my mouth like a dam that had burst, with probably the same intensity!  God’s word only says that Abraham got up early the next morning to do what God asked.  I may not have asked a multitude of questions this morning as to why God wanted me to share what He revealed to me, but I certainly didn’t immediately step forward in strong obedience.  So many times God has had to prod and remind me of what He has asked me to do, so many times I’ve questioned and presented possibilities before the Lord hoping for more clarification before I begin the task He’s presented to me.  God’s Holy Spirit revealed this truth to my heart:

 Strong obedience requires one to be in constant communication with God.

Perhaps God doesn’t always provide all the details because He knows we need to listen carefully to Him all along the way. 

The second A-ha! God’s Holy Spirit gave me was found in verse 5. “Then Abraham said to his young men, ‘Stay here with the donkey.  The boy and I will go over there to worship; then we’ll come back to you.’ “  I was struck by the phrase “go over there to worship.”  Abraham knew what God had asked of him, he knew what was to occur next and God had yet to reveal a different  plan.  God’s Spirit spoke this truth:

Abraham recognized that God is worthy of whatever He asks of us.  God is holy, righteous and sovereign.  There is no one greater, no name higher.  I think I get caught up in the idea that worship is singing a praise song to God and connecting on some emotional level.  There is worship in praising and worship is so much more.  Worshiping recognizes the worth of another and is willing to go to whatever lengths to honor and revere the one who is worshiped.  God Almighty is the Creator of all, the King over all kings, the Lord above every other lord.  No one is greater.  He is the I AM, the One and Only.  To truly worship one as great as our God requires me to sacrifice anything and everything He asks, or I’m declaring He isn’t worth more than what I want or think. 

The final A-ha! God’s Spirit revealed to me was found in the footnotes for verse 14 (don’t you just love that the Holy Spirit can use anything?!).  In verse 14, Abraham names the place where God provided a ram for sacrifice and rescued Isaac The Lord will Provide, or Yahweh-yireh.  The second half of the verse reads, “…so today it is said: ‘It will be provided on the Lord’s mountain.’ “  The foot note says that the phrase “it will be provided” can also  be translated “He will be seen.” What God provided was God revealing Himself to be seen. God’s Spirit spoke powerfully to my soul with this truth:

It is so easy for me to bring my needs before God and look for the provision He provides.  I look for how He provides the finances for an unexpected bill; I look for His provision of patience so I can handle a difficult circumstance; I look for His provision of an extra blessing to encourage my downcast spirit; I look for His provision of courage so I can take a step of faith or obedience; I look for His provision of hope from His Word so I can remain steady in times of crisis.  God is so gracious  to provide each of those things.  The shift that the Holy Spirit challenged my heart to see is that I need to look for God Himself in what He provides and not just the provision.  He is my resource.  He is the answer to my every need. God provides for me by helping me to see Him more clearly, more often, more completely.

Somehow, Abraham was able to see God first, foremost, only over all his questions and concerns.  That ability to see God enabled Abraham to have strong obedience.  I journaled the following questions this morning:   Do I see God?  Am I looking?  Do I live out every choice from the belief that God is?  Do I recognize that God is with me right now; longing to interact with me right now; calling me to listen and obey right now?  Am I longing more to see the provision or to truly experience God? 

God is still teaching me strong obedience.  I’m still learning to focus less on God’s actual provision and more on the fact that God’s provision enables me to see Him.  I’m recognizing that God wants me to lean on Him continually, so it’s okay if I don’t always know what’s next.  The more I lean, the more I see God, the greater my worship.  He is worthy.